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This is another old piece I wrote to test some mixing board equipment. The complete song was recorded, but felt flat and was never posted up. The lyrics were inspired by a character from a story I decided against writing. The character was still very powerful to me and has influenced many of my other works. The pain in these lyrics is his not mine!
By the way I know the rhyme scheme is messed up in the first verse; I don’t feel the need to update very old material.

I’ve come back to this placeA place where people knew my face
A place I use to call home
A place where I could freely walk about
Now this place has been decimated
By all those that I’ve hated

I set off to find my instigators
‘Cause you know I am a vindicator
I was used and abused like a host
I lost everyone that mattered most
I’ve returned with transparent eyes
So people can see I’m dead inside

(Chorus)

I’ve destroyed all my adversaries
But they’ve become a part of me
My old self is what I’ll never be
I’m scarred for life by these memories
And now I only find felicity
Watching my foes die horribly
The only that’s kept me from total self destruction

I put all my trust into these people
I never thought my senses would be so feeble
Such betrayal was beyond my comprehension
Why couldn’t I bring myself to defection?
I blamed myself for never seeing it comingSo I believe I deserve my suffering

Estimated date written: 2005